~The insights of crappy Jasmine gal~

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

I quit

I met Colleen for lunch today at the Subway at Robinson Road.. Then meet some barflies for a while, chatted a bit only cos they need to go back to work..

I told my boss i want to quit liao.. finally just working for one fucking week.. i think i win liao.. I dont know why i am like that.. but i really dont see myself in the line in the LT... So what i can earn lots of money.. i dont really value money a lot.. at most i eat shit for the rest of my life loh (got shit-eating job?)

My boss talked to me for 3 hours.. and i admitted i was moved a bit (AGAIN!?!) Why cant i stick to what i decided? If i did, then i never will have took the 2 tests and now in this dilemma and i may have found a decent job by now..

Sometimes, i looked at myself and i concluded that i am a fucking asshole, bloody piece of shit.. i dont have responsibilty, i dont feel, i am nothing.. i hate being nothing but i do nothing to change my nothing state.. Why?

My boss is right when he said that i am young so my heart is still not stable.. Yea, i want to do other things.. i dont want to be struck here.. in fact, if can l want to go out of Singapore to explore life.. Recently, i formed thoughts to go to Third World countries.. Of cos it is not encouraged by some.. Blah, not even sure i will do it or how.. Maybe my life will just be spent doing the same work all my life?

I dont know i dont know.. cant think now.. tired tired..

I went Yishun to make my contact lenses this evening.. went to the shop Felicia frequent.. quite cheap loh.. $120 for 7 pairs (monthly) with astigmatism.. And i did a crazy thing.. I was rushing for the Mrt and the doors were closing and i just run in.. First time i did such thing.. in the past, i will always say those ppl who did that is crazy cos they may be hurt if caught between the doors.. but today, i did the same thing.. i must be going mad...

My body is going crazy on me too.. i keep wanting to vomit.. Before eating, want to vomit.. After eating, want to vomit.. This is so half-pregnant.. got sickness but no baby..

I must give my answer to my boss tomorrow liao and i got an email from another company asking me to call them to arrange for interview for HR post.. Is this a sign?

10 Comments:

  • Well, since you don't like your LT job, quit lor, furthermore you have one HR job (although interview nia) waiting in the wings.

    But, it need to gamble sometimes in life!

    Jus my 2cent opinion!

    By Blogger Leonard, at 11:17 AM  

  • So how did it go?

    By Blogger Beng, at 1:23 PM  

  • Just wanna say hi..and I definitely think that you have an awesome blog..uhmm..take a look at my
    profile and my webpage, got there hot cool stuffs too..

    Muah!

    By Blogger PimpPia, at 2:54 PM  

  • Is one week too short to decide whether you're suitable for the job and what you really want? Perhaps you should try for at least a month and really talk through with your boss your concerns and doubts?

    Meanwhile, keep your options open. No harm going for interviews.

    By Anonymous Co-editor, at 3:14 PM  

  • I wonder if I'd sat where you sat, knowing now that you were there, and not knowing till now, that you were there.

    Mummy says Daddy should go talk more to daughter, mummy's worried that daughter's not doing that well.

    By Anonymous kelawar, at 3:20 PM  

  • hmmm,

    sometimes it good to listen to your heart, and do/work something that you like (no point suffering).

    one shouldnt regret at all... well, you wont know till you try it yah?

    my thinking is: you only live once.

    By Anonymous cherub, at 9:26 AM  

  • I guess at the current stage of your life where you don't have any major financial committments, it is safe to just quit a job and move to another when you feel like it.

    Ahh... the joy of being young.

    By Anonymous Jaywalk, at 1:11 PM  

  • i was in ur shoes quite sometime back.
    i worked for a week, found myself hating the environment and the job, and decided to call it quits.
    but i had a nice long tok with the boss, found our the real objectives of my job and...

    let's cut the long story short.

    The point is, that job made me realise the paiion i had in PR and marketing.

    Many times, we are too quick to decide on things. maybe just give it all a little more time ;)

    All the best ahead!

    *sori for this loong comment* teehee~

    By Blogger sassyjan, at 11:58 PM  

  • mom, dont quite job. or else me maria no money send home filipino

    By Blogger cheahchuwen, at 4:54 PM  

  • Leonard: Thanks.. I quit liao :p

    Beng: It went well..

    PimpPia: Ok.. will do so..

    Les Mommy: Thank you :P

    Les Daddy: You are so henpecked.. only do what mommy said.. heehee..

    cherub: Thanks.. i think my prob is considered small when compared to the bombing in your area.. take care..

    Sugar Daddy: Ya loh.. me young mah.. meaning u are old.. hee :p

    Janice: I just dont like the need to find ppl here and there.. i am a bad salesgal..

    Chuwen the Maria: Maria, where is my tofu.. Shut up and go cook.. mom is busy :p

    By Blogger Jaschocolate, at 7:07 PM  

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