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Sunday, September 04, 2005

Death....

I hate to go to the hospital because i always had a weird feeling when i am there.. It smelt too much of death and pain.. But today, i had to go to the hospital. Because today, my grandmother passed away..

The sky seemed to be crying for her as it rained and rained... I strolled in the rain when i was going to the hospital.. i didnt know the news then but as the raindrops fell onto me, i felt sad...

6 years ago, we sent away my grandfather in this very hospital.. 6 years later, we sent away my grandmother, who had choked on her lunch... I cant say that i am very upset.. my eyes are dry.. I seemed to be void of any feelings.. Maybe it is better for her to go than suffer in this cruel world...

My cousin wondered whether it is because my grandfather had came to visit her during the 7th month and decided to take her with him.. I hope that is the case and that she is really with him now... I hope she is happy, wherever she might be at...
What is death? Is it a release from pain? When is it my turn?

15 Comments:

  • Unfortunate to hear that. Deepest condolences to you and your family.

    By Blogger lancerlord, at 8:26 PM  

  • I am sorry to hear that. I experienced a similar loss a few months back as well. Take care girl. *hugs*

    By Blogger frenie, at 11:12 PM  

  • My condolences... take care...

    By Anonymous Chris, at 12:02 AM  

  • so sorry to hear abt this, take care hor

    By Blogger Ruok, at 11:03 AM  

  • take care sweetie..

    i know how u feel..

    *hugs*

    By Blogger Winter, at 12:49 PM  

  • Take care. That's what your grandma would want you to do.

    By Blogger Beng, at 6:00 PM  

  • I'm sorry to hear about it... Take care and stay strong.
    *hugs*

    By Anonymous Co-editor, at 7:55 PM  

  • *hugz*

    By Blogger Ang Ku Kueh, at 10:36 PM  

  • My condolences to your family. Don't worry. She will be happy.

    By Blogger Cold Lion, at 11:02 PM  

  • Take care, Jasmine ...

    By Blogger MyOrangeSweater, at 8:34 PM  

  • I'm really sorry about your loss. You've written beautifully about how it feels, and the rest of you will catch up and feel it too. It's very hard.

    Hang in there.

    By Blogger Gavriel, at 5:06 AM  

  • To everyone:
    Thanks for your concern.. Will be sending her off tomorrow morning and then resting her soul in the temple.. Now, I just want the week to end cos i feel very very tired..

    By Blogger Jaschocolate, at 12:37 AM  

  • *hugs* to you.

    -ningx

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:47 PM  

  • Theres life after death. Dont be sad, she is in good hands she'll be happy up there.

    Take care

    By Blogger insanityiscreativity, at 11:50 AM  

  • hey. hope you're feeling alright now. take care!

    By Blogger KwokSiong, at 10:39 PM  

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