Dying from lack of sleep...

I'm in Taiwan now... Working and dying from stress and lack of sleep.... Sharing a room with my colleague who also want to sleep... Everyday is just trying our best to wake up using 3 alarm clocks.. Kk.. will blog when I'm back...
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Someone sent me this through email so I'm sharing it here... Very meaningful.. It makes one think of regardless of how short or how long life is, the real significance is to enjoy it.. Only then, there will be no regrets when you leave this world. Enjoy reading...


"The Fall Of Freddie The Leaf" by Leo Buscaglia

Spring had passed and so had summer…

Freddie the leaf had grown large. His mid-section was wide and strong and his five extensions were firm and pointed.

He had first appeared in spring as a small sprout on a rather large branch near the top of a tall tree.

Freddie was surrounded by hundreds of other leaves just like himself, or so it seemed. Soon he discovered that no two leaves were alike, even though they were on the same tree. Alfred was the leaf next to him. Ben was the leaf on his right side, and Clare was the lovely leaf overhead.

They had all grown up together. They had learned to dance in the spring breezes, bask lazily in the summer sun and wash off in the cooling rains.

But it was Daniel who was Freddie’s best friend. He was the largest leaf on the limb and seemed to have been there before anyone else. It appeared to Freddie that Daniel was also the wisest among them. It was Daniel who told them that they were part of a tree. It was Daniel who explained that they were growing in a public park. It was Daniel who told him that the tree had strong roots, which were hidden in the ground below. He explained about the birds who came to sit on their branch and sing morning songs. He explained about the sun, the moon, the stars and the seasons. Freddie loved being a leaf. He loved his branch, his light leafy friends, his place high in the sky, the wind that jostled him about, the sun rays that warmed him, the moon that covered him with soft, white shadows.

Summer had been especially nice. The long hot days felt good and the warm nights were peaceful and dreamy.

There were many people in the park that summer. They often came and sat under Freddie’s tree. Daniel told him that giving shade was part of his purpose.

“What’s a purpose?” Freddie had asked. “A reason for being” Daniel had answered. “To make things more pleasant for others is a reason for being. To make shade for old people who come to escape the heat of their homes is a reason for being. To provide a cool place for children to come and play. To fan with our leaves, the picnickers who come to eat on checkered tablecloths. These are all reasons for being.”

Freddie especially liked the old people. They sat so quietly on the cool grass and hardly ever moved. They talked in whispers of times past. The children were fun too, even though they sometimes tore holes in the bark of the tree, or carved their names into it. Still, it was fun to watch them move so fast and to laugh so much.

But Freddie’s summer soon passed. It vanished on an October night. He had never felt it so cold. All the leaves shivered with the cold. They were coated with a thin layer of white, which quickly melted and left them dew drenched and sparkling in the morning sun.

Again it was Daniel who explained that they had experienced their first frost. The sign that it was fall and that winter would soon come.

Almost at once, the whole tree, in fact the whole park was transformed into a blaze of color. There was hardly a green leaf left. Alfred had turned a deep yellow. Ben had become a bright orange. Claire had become a blazing red, Daniel a deep purple, and Freddie was red and gold and blue. How beautiful they all looked. Freddie and his friends had made their tree a rainbow.

“Why did we turn different colors,” Freddie asked, “When we are all on the same tree?” “Each of us is different. We have had different experiences. We have faced the sun differently. We have cast shade differently. Why should we not have different colors?” Daniel said matter-of-factly. Daniel told Freddie that this wonderful season was called fall.

One day, a very strange thing happened. The same breezes that in the past had made them dance began to push and pull at their stems, almost as if they were angry. This caused some of the leaves to be torn from their branches and swept up in the wind, tossed about, and dropped softly to the ground.

All the leaves became frightened. “What’s happening?” they asked each other in whispers. “It’s what happens in fall,” Daniel told them. “It’s the times for leaves to change their home. Some people call it ‘to die.’” “Will we all die,” Freddie asked? “Yes,” Daniel answered. “Everything dies. No matter how big or small, how weak or strong. We first do our job. We experience the sun and the moon, the wind and the rain. We learn to dance and to laugh. Then we die.”

“I won’t die!” Freddie said, with determination. “Will you Daniel?” “Yes,” answered Daniel, “When it’s my time.” “When is that?” Asked Freddie. “No one knows for sure.” Daniel responded.

Freddie noticed that the other leaves continued to fall. He thought it must be their time. He saw that some of the leaves lashed back at the wind before they fell, others simply let go and dropped quietly. Soon the tree was almost bare.

“I’m afraid to die.” Freddie told Daniel. “I don’t know what’s down there.” “We all fear what we don’t know, Freddie, it’s natural.” Daniel reassured him. “Yet you were not afraid when spring became summer. You were not afraid when summer became fall. They were natural changes. Why should you be afraid of the season of death?” “Does the tree die too?” Freddie asked. “Someday. But there is something stronger than the tree. It is life. That lasts forever, and we’re all a part of life.” “Where will we go when we die?” “No one knows for sure, that’s the great mystery!” “Will we return in the spring?” “We may not, but life will.” “Then, what has been the reason for all this?” Freddie continued to question. “Why were we here at all if we are only to fall and die?” Daniel answered in his matter-of-fact way, “It’s been about the sun and the moon. It’s been about happy times together. It’s been about the shade, and the old people, and the children. It’s been about colors in the fall. It’s been about seasons. Isn’t that enough?”

That afternoon, in the golden light of dusk, Daniel let go. He fell effortlessly. He seemed to smile peacefully as he fell. “Goodbye for now, Freddie.” He said.

Then Freddie was alone. The only leaf left on his branch.

The first snow fell the following morning. It was soft, white, and gentle; but it was bitter cold. There was hardly any sun that day, and the day was very short. Freddie found himself losing his color, becoming brittle. It was constantly cold, and the snow weighed heavily upon him.

At dawn, the wind came that took Freddie from his branch. It didn’t hurt at all. He felt himself float quietly, gently, and softly downward.

As he fell, he saw the whole tree for the first time. How strong and firm it was! He was sure that it would live for a long time, and he knew that he had been a part of its life, and it made him proud.

Freddie landed on a clump of snow. It somehow felt soft, and even warm. In this new position he was more comfortable than he had ever been. He closed his eyes and fell asleep. He did not know that spring would follow winter, and that the snow would melt into water. He did not know that what appeared to be his useless dried self would join with the water and serve to make the tree stronger. Most of all he did not know that there, asleep in the tree and the ground were already plans for new leaves in the spring.

…The Beginning

The Mystery

Looking but not seeing....

Searching but not finding...

Thinking but not understanding...

Love....... Sighz...

Love

No, never, forever...

No, there is no such person who exists...

No, even if he exists, he wont accept me..

Never, I will never find such a wonderful person...

Never, even if he exists, he will never love me..

Forever is the time i need to use to find my love...

Forever is the time i need to make him love me..

Forever seems so far away.....

The Five Factor Values Test

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount. You're loyal to your friends... to a point. But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties. Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You don't really value honesty. You do value getting your way, no matter what. And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem. A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!) Generosity: You don't really value generosity. Your needs always come first, no matter what. And you'll possibly help someone else out... But only if it helps you in return. Humility: You value humility a fair amount. You tend to be an easy going, humble person. But occasionally your ego takes over. You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best. Tolerance: You value tolerance a fair amount. You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas. You have very few prejudices that you're aware of. And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

Life is getter worse...

I got tons and tons of bad things happening today... Stupid refund customers, weird ppl calling, customer's cheque bounced, hotels unable to confirm, forget to pay for hotel and it got cancelled..... But got one good thing!!! Sugianto from Project Superstar came by my agency and booked a tour for his parents.. At least I think it is him bah... But i pretended do not know him loh.. He looked much cuter in real life.. Lalalala.... I think i am becoming crazy..

Spiderman 3 the movie

Just watched the movie, "Spiderman 3" at PS...



Overall, the movie is quite okay.. Plot is like usual.. But the graphics are still pretty good... Had tears in my eyes when I saw Harry die.. Touching moments.. But there are parts that are pretty not necessary.. Anyway, it was still worth a watch..



Trim my hair today.. Cute? Finally able to wear the new tee I bought 2 months back.. Luckily I still can fit in, even though i had gained weight.. :p

Labour Day Holiday with Phantom of the Opera...

Yesterday was Labour Day but Miss poor thing me still need to work... But i managed to meet my friend for breakfast at the cheese prata shop near NUS before going to work... One funny thing is that we left the shop without paying and no one noticed.. While walking a distance, i suddenly asked my friend, "Hey, just checking.. Did you pay any money just now?".. And he quickly rushed back to pay... I was laughing non-stop already...

Then after work, I took a quick bite in 10MINS and took a cab down to Esplanade to watch the musical, The Phantom of the opera..



It was a great show and the all the actors and actresses are wonderful... I bought myself the cd of the original london cast recording... No more money to buy other things.. I think i intend to watch the movie over dvd soon...