~The insights of crappy Jasmine gal~

Monday, February 28, 2005

My Gem Horoscope~~

Turquoise or lapis lazuli (Sagittarius)

You like: Going abroad, watching comedy movies and learning risky new skills such as bungee-jumping or scuba-diving.

You dislike: routine, living in the same town all ur life, EastEnder re-runs and boring food. You're best at: Inspiring people to overcome their fears, winning arguments and smiling when u are surrounded by gloomy faces.

Deep down: U are a wandering spirit with a lust for adventure and travel. No mat! ter where u are, there's always somewhere else u would like to be - just for a day or two. U hate being cooped up.

Your career: Ski instructor, sports journalist, human-resources manager, advocate or social worker

Fashion: Fashion-wise, you're constantly changing - one minute you're massively slobby in a stained old sweatshirt and ancient trackie pants; then the next you opt for an OTT party look, complete with feather boas and masses of glitter. Generally though, you prefer going casual, because you have to feel comfortable.

As a mate: U are honest and speak ur mind without fear. Friends like ur outgoing personality and often turn to u when they need fun and adventure. U aren't interested in gossiping and get irritated when that's the only topic of conversation.

As a girlfriend: U are a bag of laughs, thrilling ur boy f with ur thirst for adventure. He'll appreciate ur down-to-earth personality 'n' loves that u get on so well with his mates. A pleasant partner, u areundemanding and enjoy an easygoing relationship.

If your boyfriend's a Sagittarius : Adventurous and cocky, he loves travelling and wants u to join him on his journey. Let ur hair down, take it easy and enjoy the ride with this cute character. He often gets restless,so make an effort to see and do new things instead of chillin' on the sofa every night

Celebrity Sagittarians Zoe Ball (23/11/70), Dane Bowers - Another Level (28/11/79), Gary Lineker (30/11/60), Britney Spears (2/12/81), Lucy Liu (2/12/68), Aaron Carter (7/12/87), Nicole Appleton (7/12/74), Christine Aguilera (18/12/80), Brad Pitt (18/12/65), Stephen Spielberg (18/12/47), Keifer & nbsp;Sutherland (21/12/66) and Jamie Theakston (21/12/70).

Finally can rest for a while!!

Well, went to work yesterday and took a poster home... ~~ BOA new album one... Not taking it for free hor, i will buy album on thurs (want to get double chop mah)... So scared that i will give wrong money to customers due to lack of sleep... Lucky nothing happened.. Hee~~

Was waiting for Joycelyn's report but really cannot tahan so went to sleep at around 12. Plans to wake up at 5am this morning but cannot make it and only wake up at 7am... Did the executive summary until 9 plus and had to take cab to school to meet up with them... Luckily there is no HB lecture today.. Our role play seems to pale in comparsion with the other groups... so sad... Never mind, at least got A- for ICA 1 le... Haha... i need all the marks i can get cos exams will be so difficult.

Haiz... still need to go for CRM lecture at 6pm... so late... Never mind, at least i can sleep longer tonite... Planning to go Causeway pt's Jigsaw puzzle world to see frames... need to buy for the one we completed on Sat... Hmph... think will be exp...

Saturday, February 26, 2005


Wahaha~~ Suppose to meet the gals at mrt station at 10am but only wake up at 9.30am... Hee.. Then i spent 10 mins to sweep the floor (requested by mom :p)... I waited for Karen to come to my place first as her father drove her to my place... Then we went mrt station to pick up the rest and then went to ntuc to buy ingredients for lunch. We bought sphagetti, sphagetti sauce, a bottle of Domremy red grape wine with peach, etc.. On the way to my place, we bought bubble teas to drink cos it is soooo hot... Karen and Doreen started cooking when reached my place... Funny to see Doreen do cooking cos she is like dont know how to do one. After that, each of us got a big plate/bowl of sphagetti with sauce and lots of meat, even my bro got( but Karen and Doreen's bowl are a lot smaller, dont know they give us so much). They said like eating ba chou mee cos got so many meat. The funny thing is that although we are supposed to do project, we ended up watching vcd and doing jigsaw puzzle. Chengying, Doreen and me finished the Winnie the pooh puzzle in 3 hrs (with help from the nos behind the puzzle...hee~). Joycelyn went to my bed and sleep sleep and play with my hippo dear dear and disturb Karen, who is the only one doing actual work then... Joycelyn is sooooooo bad... wahaha~~ Then we divided remaining work between Joycelyn and me... We also rehearse for monday's role play... Hahaha... got the time of our life, laughing and laughing as we act... Around five, Karen, Doreen and Joycelyn needed to leave. Doreen and Joycelyn got dinner outside, Karen needs to go home and eats. Chengying stayed till 6pm cos she need to print and cut the board for the scenes... I sent her to the mrt then buy fries for bro... It started to rain heavily for a while on my way home.. super cold then... now feeling hot again after the rain started... Think i will fell sick if always hot, then cold, then hot again... Ok, need to edit project le...

Friday, February 25, 2005

I am so GOOD!!!

I am glad to say that I am a good person, because I actually didn't rate her so bad even though i am really sick of her... I based it on actual facts hor... but i did rate her below average (only got 4 choice loh, excellent and good are not a choice so only below average and poor le)... Wahaha.. Today i bought my new bag to school, bought for $17 at Bugis Village... Took a pic and wanted Joycelyn to help me post it but dont know why cannot send to her phone via bluetooth... Haiz...Can only show the pic next time.

Today, Joycelyn was saying that she always get C for marketing modules during IM and Mr Lim said that at least she was not majoring in Marketing so is good thing... Then I add in that I am in trouble cos I major in HR and all my HR modules are C..Haiz.. Once again, i am reminded of the cruel fact that I choose wrongly. Dont regret choosing cos in retail will be worse ba (students in retail class are HIGHLY competitive)... Never mind, no choice anyway le...

Want for the baking again.. today is Strawberry Juice Cake and Strawberry Mousse Cake. dont really like strawberry but the cake is not too bad... We rolled the Strawberry Juice Cake into swiss rolls.. taste great. Dont really like Mousse cake cos there is too much cream...

Went to ntuc to buy strawberry and lemon barley drinks.... buy the drinks cos the gals are coming to my place to do project tomorrow... Karen is planning to cook spaghetti for lunch... Mom is asking to mop the floor cos it is too dirty... Actually i think it is ok loh but she always want to clean up when my friends come over... Ok, time to do research for tomorrow's project.

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Do You Have Brain Fog?

I always forget things so decided to do this.... Haiz... really got
slight brain fog le (even if i dont know what brain fog is loh).

You have significant brain fog

You may be experiencing severe episodes of brain fog and mental confusion and should seek professional medical care to discuss potential causes and treatments. Brain fog can feel like you've been drugged -- similar to being stoned, confused and disoriented without the accompanying pleasurable "high." It can be triggered for many reasons, including decreased estrogen production during menopause, low blood sugar, food allergies, stress, poor nutrition and lack of exercise. Other conditions, including Alzheimer's disease, depression, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue or an underactive thyroid could also be contributing to your brain fog and mental confusion.


I seriously want to shout bad words.... ~~

The crm test is considerably easy but i hope I had answered the questions correctly and scored good grades. What made me super mad is that I only scored 66 for my bpo website... Damn it!! I spent 13 hours on it (12 am to 1 pm), and i get such grade.. Fujie got higher than me and he only spent like 4 hours... Bastard... I ask the teacher why and we review my website... She said something like she marked it point by point one, so if u cover the point then got it.. Then she said my learning outcome is different from the discussion issues... TA Ma De....She sucks loh... dont even understand why loh. I should have just choose to do IT outsourcing then, instead of wasting my time to find others, since she anyhow marks one... Frankly speaking, tomorrow is feedback loh and I am going to grade her the last grade, VERY POOR cos her lecturing skills sucks and she kept pushing the tutorials here and there loh... Dont even understand what she is teaching.... Ta si ding le..


Now in school, just finished e-biz lab.. I had about 30 mins to study for crm test... Today, i finally know why i cant do my e-biz lab last week. It's bcoz i use VBscript instead of Javascript.. That's why got Javascript error... Think i will copy the tutorial and do again later... Finally finishes CV writing but it is sooooo.... lame, not appealing but no choice, I dont know what to write le... Ok ok.. Time to study...

Wednesday, February 23, 2005


OMG, I cant believe myself... I had a project to rush, a test to study and a CV to write, and here I am typing my blog... I must be mad... Better keep this short..

Didnt really ignore my friends since i still have project work to do with them... So I still go to school with them, sit with them, work with them... But i no longer wait for them.. I left school when my lesson ends as I do need to go home and rest (I had work in the afternoon).. I seem to be putting up another face in front of them and covering up my real feelings. Anyway, I had come to terms with their behaviour and accepted that although i am their friend, i am not so impt until they will think of me all the time.. I think it is how I am seen to others, capable, responsible, always seem to know things and what to do, and that everyone will let me know things... But sadly, i want to announce to everyone that I am just a normal gal... i dont know everything and if no one makes the effort to let me know the info, i wont know anything at all... Feels so tired today, luckily work had occupied my thoughts and prevented me from thinking other things. Haiz.. just feel so old now... Anyway, need to go study le... Hope i will be back to normal and cheerful again.


Yesterday is a stressful and frustrating day... I woke up early to do my Special Project but it took me a long time to just come up with a paragraph (Wasnt really concentrating Hosted by Photobucket.com).. Then I went to the post office to pick up brother's packages but there was a queue and the person is taking a long time so i had to rush off...I reach Yio Chu Kang mrt station on time. However, when i msg Doreen, she informed me that today's lec is CANCELLED.... Very sianz... No one really informed me.. only felicia msg me in the morning to ask me whether it is true or not and I asked her to go confirm with Malcolm. I didn't bother to double check too.... But frankly, no one else told me loh.. and I felt tired and sad.. I was in tears in the mrt and had to control myself (Once again pretend to be having flu...Hosted by Photobucket.com) I called up my mom to complain and feel better but still cannot go home as i had work at Sembawang later. I think I dont want to waste time with ppl le.. Cos I am the type who treat ppl good and I expect the same... I am not those good ppl who like to suffer in silence. I will rather be alone... In anger, I actually go msg everyone who owe me money and cds and asked them to return me... Anyway, i went to Orchard to WALK... cos didnt buy a lot of money and no atm card either... Glad to say it's a good way to curb my spending habit...Hosted by Photobucket.com I was late for work (went in at 5.15pm when i should be there at 4.45pm) and I got a spitting headache... Luckily there were less kids yesterday and the headache came and went at times... After work, finally can go home and SLEEP!!Hosted by Photobucket.com

Monday, February 21, 2005

Are You a Shopaholic? Quiz

Saw this quiz so couldnt resist doing it... hahaa... I'm normal hor...just need to be careful.

Are You a Shopaholic?

Slightly Addicted but Nothing to Worry About:
You've been known to go crazy on occasion, but for the most part you keep it in check. You pick out the few trendy pieces each season that you need to update your wardrobe, and you work your closets around that. You definitely own a few more shoes than necessary, but you're responsible enough to avoid a fiscal crisis from overshopping. Friendly warning: Slightly addicted shoppers have been known to cross over into shopaholic territory ‑- so think twice before you indulge in that next two-for-one sale.

Career Quiz

Got this from teens.com... so cute and accurate but dont like the jobs suggested... hmph

What's your career destiny?
SO, what kind of career would be best suited for you?

Mostly Bs
Your need for freedom and excitement keeps you on the move exploring new things. Even though being spontaneous works for you, you should still plan for the future and stay focused.

Career focus: You'd do well in jobs that require active “doing” which offer immediate, tangible reward. Think about jobs in medicine, engineering, choreography or law enforcement.


Sunday, February 20, 2005

Another Weekend GONE~~

Haha... I had wanted to post yesterday nite but is too tired after work (preparing for stock take, super lots of things to do)... Anyway, here's yesterday's post:

Was thinking of what my friends said when on my way home from work. Chengying and Joycelyn both asked me why do I keep buying a lot of things when i complain that i no money. They feel that i really she de hua qian, and will keep buying cds and magazines and all, like i got all the magazines they want to see (actually no hor, i dont buy some magazines like foreign ones, ok? those are pretty exp). Actually they dont understand ba, but buying things is like a retail therapy and a way to destress.. I buy a lot when i am happy and I buy a lot more when i am sad.. If want me to stop then the alternative is to eat tons of chocolate that will greatly affect my body (puts on weight, get heart attack, you name it you got it). Errr.. think it is safer to buy things ba..

Now For today's post:

Hahaha... happily didn't go to work today cos I want to rest.. (NOT MIA, but i request to be off one hor) I watch "virtual reality" on HBO (brother's tv so can only watch what he is watching and there are only eng channels so very sianz..). It is a movie on artificial intelligence, how the computer program turns against humans and brings disaster to mankind. Think the main male actor is cool, looks like Ashton Kutcher from the butterfly effect.. anyway, it is happy ending, the hero saves the world thingy...

After that, i went to West mall to buy 6 novels and get ang pao from one auntie... think they think i am very moneyminded cause i chased for the ang paos throughout the week... Not that I want but because i am not very young le (21 already) so must collect while i can... haha.. Anyway, back to novels, i wanted to buy them during work yesterday but forgot to bring my atm card... After buying, i went home to slack and read novels... Then i went to ktv at Partyworld Clementi.. Had to wait for Jane for an hour as she accompany her bf, mr pig to buy a siemen hp at Tampines Mall Starhub... She waited 2 hours plus loh... Amazing... She also bought a Papa Roti for each of us, which she also queued for 1 hour... Err... SUPER amazing... the roti is nice just that it is cold le and i finished it on the way home in the cab. Today, Janice's friends, Peter and David(err...think is David.. memory not good) joined us... So we got seven ppl, me, Jane, Mr pig, Janice, Jocelyn, Peter and David... Hahaha... sang lots of songs today, got SHE's tong kuai, hou niao, etc... Chose a lot of duet songs for pig and jane to sing but pig dont know how to sing so ended up the gals singing.. (Haiz... pig and jane must go practise more...). Janice, Jocelyn and I shared cab home again.. Trying luck to see if we will be so unlucky again. Cause last time (6th feb), we met a cab driver who dont know the routes and didnt ask for directions and didnt follow the instructions we gave... lucky, he reduced the cab fares after that. This time round, we gave specific instructions and got home safely... Janice was telling us some of her cab experiences during the journey... wow.. think her life is very happening wor.. Oh yeah, accidentally snatch her mic during one song and stop another song today... Really sorry...It's a mistake, i swear...

Actually i can change time and post yesterday's entry one but think not honest... haha... what can i say... i'm weird... I am supposed to write my CV and short write-up now but dont feel motivated... hahaha... my interest is soooo shortlived, still recall me being very excited on friday but now is okay okay... cause dont think i can get in ba... Just found that my tagboard disappeared all the way down after i posted the pics... Think need to add some html somewhere but since i dont know what, think better not do it ba (So friends, pls go down to post if you want to leave msg... thanks!) That's all le, quite a long one... and i need to start writing.... Bye bye...

Saturday, February 19, 2005

words and words and MORE words

After going through my pasts posting hor, i discovered that it is all full of words and no pics... Bo pian... need to wait till i buy a bluetooth adapter then can upload the pics in my camera phone... Till then, i can only uses words and more words to entertain you guys... Haiz... Never mind, i now upload some pics in my com using PhotoBucket. Got my favourite S.H.E. wor... Enjoy viewing...

My idols SHE
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So Sweet
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SHE in Encore Outfit
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SHE in persian outfits
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So cool!!!
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SHE again
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Friday, February 18, 2005

Oh My God!!!

Today is quite sianz as my class is cancelled and I need to wait 2 hours for the SP meeting... Haiz.. Took the time to finish my HB tutorial le, left only one more..

Saw Mr Aloysius Tan today and he said can recommand me to his friend in Nokia who is looking for management trainee... Wow... I need to rush out my CV asap le... Ms Chia also asked me to write a write up of 200 words to describe my achievements in NYP cos she wants to nominate me for SBM award... OMG... must pinch myself hard hard to know i am not dreamingz... So happy so lucky and SO busy...

I started my baking course today and learnt two recipes, Japanese cheese cake and Cheesy ladder sponge. My teacher is Julie Yee, the same teacher i learnt to do pineapple tarts from... Very fun cos the Cheesy ladder sponge needs us to put cream and assemble the parts... hahaha..

This week, a lot of my friends around me are busy registering to study in the local uni, NUS, NTU and SMU. I am so jealous of them and tempted to do so too. But my mom already want me to go look for job as my bro has only 2 more years with Navy and then will be jobless... Haiz... Never mind, cos I know i am a fickle gal and like changes. Think it is better to work for a few years then go overseas to study degree.. more challenging for me... Thus i think this few years need to work hard and save more so need to buy less (sob sob.. very hard).

OMG, just recall me scolding Joycelyn for being obsessed with blog and now I think i caught the virus too... I posted like 5 posts yesterday and this past week, I have either been busy posting entrys or finding things for blog.... very jialat.... Ok, better stop here le..

Another story on learning to let go

The Pretty Lady

Once upon a time a big monk and a little monk were traveling together. They came to the bank of a river and found the bridge damaged. They had to wade across the river. There was a pretty lady who was stuck at the damaged bridge and couldn't cross the river. The big monk offered to carry the pretty lady across the river on his back. The lady accepted.

The little monk was shocked by the move of the big monk. "How can big disciple brother carry a lady when we are supposed to avoid all intimacy with females?" thought the little monk. But he kept quiet. The big monk carried the lady across the river and the small monk followed unhappily. When they crossed the river, the big monk let the lady down and they parted ways with her.

All along the way for several miles, the little monk was very unhappy with the act of the big monk. He was making up all kinds of accusations about the big monk in his head. This got him madder and madder. But he still kept quiet. And the big monk had no inclination to explain his situation.

Finally, at a rest point many hours later, the little monk could not stand it any further, he burst out angrily at the big monk. "How can you claim yourself a devout monk, when you seize the first opportunity to touch a female, especially when she is very pretty? All your teachings to me make you a big hypocrite." The big monk looked surprised and said, "I had put down the pretty lady at the river bank many hours ago, how come you are still carrying her along?"

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Letting Go..

My friend sent me this through email.. I think it is very interesting and meaningful. I think Kit Yee, my classmate, should really read about this cos she is going through some sort of identity crisis now (she said one hor). Actually I can also relate to the article because sometimes I just dont know how to let go... Maybe it's time to buck up myself and forget things of the past....

Letting go(adapted from an anonymous piece)

Letting go doesn't mean I stop caring.
It means that sometimes people have to do it for themselves.

Letting go is not giving in to powerlessness.
It's understanding that complete control is only ever a rhetorical position.

Letting go is learning that listening does not mean waiting to speak.

Letting go is not trying to change another.
The more we seek to change others, the more we are blind to ourselves.

Letting go is staying away from the blame game.
Things happen, people get hurt, people die. It has always been so.

Letting go is not to regret what has happened, but to think of the part it plays in where I am now, and the opportunity it presents for guidance.

Letting go is understanding that any experience can eventually be helpful, though this may often be difficult to understand at the time.

Letting go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being, and make their own way, as you make yours.

Letting go is not to fix, but to be supportive if my support is requested, or if my offer of support is accepted.

Letting go is not to automatically deny or accept, attack or protect, flee or intervene. Sometimes letting go simply means waiting to see what happens.

Letting go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to be aware of how I might improve my relationship to others.

Letting go is not to criticise and regulate anyone,
but to try to live in a spirit of gentleness.

Letting go is to fear less and love more,
For in fearing more we love less and fear even more.

Letting go is trusting that if I can listen for more helpful understandings of life and how to live it, and occasionally learn, the rest will follow.

My EaSt and wEsT HoRoscOpE

You are truer to your sign than most. With freedom-loving Uranus nestled between the planets. Sensing your identity and your intellect, you are likely to be even more idealistic and open-minded than usual, as well as ingeniously inventive and creative in your thinking. You are more expansive and optimistic than ever, and luck doe' tend to smile on you. You love a good party as much as a good crusade.

You may feel called to teach the way some feel called to the cloth-as a mission from God. You may see teaching as an opportunity to, in your own small way, save the world. You do much more than your duty to instruct your students in their studies; it is a means to encourage their individual intellectual and spiritual growth toward being worthy citizens of the world. You would not only share your knowledge, you would also inspire them to seek after the ideals of truth, beauty, wisdom, and justice.

You may meet a lovely Libra at a committee meeting who shares your vision of a better humanity sharing a brighter tomorrow, as well as your proclivity for group activities. A visionary Aquarius can certainly share your wavelength, but the two of you might get lost in orbit together. Your greatest challenge is to remember to check in on Earth occasionally, and your asset is your unbridled optimism.

Exclusively from http://www.tigerbeer.us/horoscope/

Boring... Boring.. Boring day..

So sianz... fell asleep at 8pm yesterday, ended up waking up at 3 A.M.... Cannot go back to sleep.. Super Sianz....
So then I decided to go online... Obviously, everyone on msn is AWAY... I went to browse other ppl's blog pages and do quizzes for mine.. Just now happen to see my friend's entry which she deleted le... It's about man and woman. How each has their own destined one and they will meet them one day. It's very meaning and I like the idea that everyone has their own partners who they will meet one day. It reminds me of a flash movie I had seen last year. It mentions that God created woman out of man's ribs. Thus man will only be completed when they find their right bones. Touching ah.. Anyway, time for lesson...

NeW reciPe 4 JaSminE

Very kaypo to know what is Jasmine's recipe so went to do this test again... Wahaha... Ppl will start to say i am bo liao le...

How to make a Jasmine

5 parts anger

5 parts arrogance

1 part ego
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add lovability to taste! Do not overindulge!



Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

mY IcE-CreaM fLaVour

I went to Joyceln's website and saw this... Wahaha... So cute.. But then I thought I am chocolate one...Haiz.. never mind... cos Neopolitan means got more than one flavour so CHOCOLATE is included wor.... Maybe next time can order Earthquake from Swensen to eat le...

Your Icecream Flavour is...Neopolitan!
You aren't satisfied with just one flavor. They say variety is the spice of life and this shines through in your Ice cream of choice! Just don't eat all the chocolate and leave the strawberry and vanilla behind!
What is your Icecream Flavour?

Find out at Go Quiz

Monday, February 07, 2005


Another tired day... Probably because I went home late last nite.. Why? I went to Party world for ktv with my secondary school friends, Jane, Huimin and Joycelyn. I had to rush down to clementi after work. First time I want to ktv so it's very memorable... We were having lots of fun and kept laughing and laughing. Super tired because of this and ends up feeling asleep in International Marketing lecture. But i think the teacher is too naggy la... or else how come I never fell asleep in Human Behaviour lec...

I won 2 tixs to the "I Do I Do" premiere, which is today. However, when I got the tixs at 6.30pm, they told me the show is delayed to 9.15pm cos the celebrities are coming. On other days, i will be glad to wait but I am really tired and my mom still want to buy stuff for tomorrow's reunion dinner, so ended up not going.... Hee... but we two will be going to watch the "Seoul Raiders" this week.. Think is more interesting ba... i like to watch Shu qi... Hee.. think she is super beautiful and slim and all... Haiz... Wish i am like her... Low self-esteem le...

Anyway, I think I really caught the flu from Doreen. My nose is like dripping the whole day. Not only me got hit, think Felicia is also affected... This is bad since Chinese new year is coming in 2 days time... Haiz... I think I better go sleep le, so as to get well faster... Need to blow my nose again... dripping.... Nighty..

Friday, February 04, 2005

A Recipe for ME

What personality elements make up your Personality cocktail?
Tell the bartender to mix up a few yous!

A wise man once said, "I drink, therefore I am!" An interesting comment indeed, but what does it mean? Well we think we have the answer. Every personality contains a lot of traits. This test aims to determine, from your name alone, the most dominant personality traits and give you a fun little recipe for your own personality cocktail. Perhaps you and your friends can have a little Personality cocktail party and compare results! We hope the concuctions this test generates don't leave a bad taste in your mouth. Oh and remember, always drink in moderation - we dont want you getting tipsy on personalities now do we!

How to make a Jaschocolate

3 parts jealousy

1 part arrogance

1 part empathy

1 part chocolate
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of caring

A Sad Sad Dayz...

Got 3 mths never post le.... now looking for template to make page look nicer...Wahaha

I had 3 icas yesterday... really stressed out... all the stress plus lack of sleep plus quarreling with my mom in the morning resulted in me broking down in tears after CRM test.... Quite pai seh ah... I couldn't stop my tears, and kept on letting my tears run. I found that the more I cry, the more tired I felt and the more I want to keep on crying....So the tears goes on for 30mins and only stopped when I had to take the last test... I am really seriously thinking that I may fail my CRM test.... Haiz... Think I scared my friends with my tears... Scared another friend when I sms him that I feel like dying... He thought something has happened. Really thanks for his concerns wor... Feeling better now le, plus I managed to win free tixs to see the local movie, "I do I do". Super happy and I went on shopping spree today. Bought 3 jigsaw in school, SHE DVD(waited super long) and 6 novels to read during coming holidays... Now, I'm still debating whether to buy Jay chou DVD or not... Not really his fan leh...

Taking Human Behaviour as a module now... Kinda like the basics of psychology. From the notes, i am able to understand why I am the way I am... Mostly due to my parents' indulgent parenting style, I am quite a brat when i want to be... Tends to rely on ppl a lot for help (So sorry to my project mates from yr 1 to 3). I also had low self-esteem, due to being compared a lot to other more outstanding ppl in the family (like bro, cousins, etc...). Overall, I understand myself more but still at debate on how to change myself cos the laziness is really in my bone and I dont have the motivation to start changing anyway...

Gave my er-ge a present for his 22nd birthday on wed... Actually, didn't tell him that i bought the gift years ago, when we were both in sec 4.. miss the time to give him that year so when I finally dig it up during spring cleaning, i decided to give it to him this year. One reason is to clear space (wahaha... no choice.. Chinese new year coming). But the more important reason is to clear so that I wont be remind of the sad past, of the time I had a mad crush on him. It was quite ok when I met him on wed... not much feelings le (probably because most of my mind is on the coming tests yesterday). Quite surprised to see him smoking and learning that the other 2/8 guys also smoked... What is it with guys and smoking? Always mutually attracted to each other? No idea.... Wow... what a long post. it's like shooting out 3 mths' worth of post but still need more ba... hee.. Anyway, time to sleep... nite and thanks for sharing my thoughts..