~The insights of crappy Jasmine gal~

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Dress Up

For people who know me, most of them are quite familiar with me in tee and jeans.. So Monday was a rare occasion that i chose to dress up as we have a visitor to the dept.. Actually it did not matter but I was trying to use the occasion to wear my new clothes (okie, bought long ago but never wear)..

Kawaii ne??

I looked old.. :'(

Acted cute mode


One of the staff in my dept said I dressed like Britney Spears, cos she wore a school gal outfit for her first album.. AND he kept telling that to all the other staff.. Really nothing to do loh, kept teasing me.. "-___-

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

The 20-Questions Meme about Yourself

I saw this meme at Neh Neh Pok Cheeks' blog and just decided to do it.. I just randomly give it a title, btw..

01. What disappoints you the most?

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
One month trip around Europe

03. What’s your favorite thing to do?
Sleep... I am a pig..

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Yes and No. Money can buys you short-term happiness. True happiness, however, depends on you yourself.

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be? To die happy.

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No. Without money, I may need to live on the charity of others for food and water and shelter.. It will not be the life I want.

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My reason for existence.. I am still trying to find it, by the way...

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Give my mother half of it and pass my brother the other half to ask him to help me invest. :)

09. What color represents you the most?
Red.. with my hot temper and tactless mouth that can provoke anyone..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
Nobody tagged me.. i do it myself one..

11. What makes you happy?
That I have make a difference..

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
I do not hate anyone generally as everyone has a choice to be what they want to be. However, I do hate self-important people who like to burden others with their lives ALL the time. One must know that we all have our own roles and lives to carry on, and NO ONE is more important than another.

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Hopefully somewhere I like.

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
The power to be invisible (along with the clothes i wear cos I dont want to be naked when i re-appear). I want to hide and observe and know all the secrets in life (think Harry Potter with invisible coat)..

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? My family

16. Any childhood memories you’ll like to re-live?
When I am 1-3 years old. Those are the carefree days without any school

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change? My inability to think and decide...

18. What makes you cry?
Everything emotional, from a good sad movie to being upset with my mother.

19. What is your least favourite animal?
Errr... I cannot think of any at the moment.. Havent been killed by any yet..

20. What is one thing your friends probably don’t know about you? I am the shy-est girl in the whole wide world.. and i am not that strong..

- Jaywalk Daddy: Cos he needs to get his blogging momentum back (yessh, i is a gd daughter)

- Uncle Moo Moo: Cos he is damn free at his attachment place

- DPL "Devil Kor Kor" and Missus dear: To stop him from hurting innocents and to make Missus blog

- Uncle Vandy: To stop him from seducing innocents

I am a free bird..

Woohoo.. most of the staff in my dept are taking their leave this week.. so nobody to disturb me at work.. I am still conveniently ignoring the stacks of papers for filing behind my desk.. HAHAHA...

Too bad my admin officer and my colleague are still around, so I can't do any kinky stuff or watch p0rn or something in the office.. haha.. Okie, i should just log in the bar and stone then..

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

温岚- 傻瓜 Landy Wen - Fool

眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
We are all aware of the betrayals,
But knowing it does not make any difference.
With tears in our eyes and mixed emotions,
We choose to close our eyes and ignore the truth.

故作软弱 撒娇害羞
We know all the common tricks other people do,
Pretending to be weak and shy in the relationship.
But we still feel a little awkward in doing them.

A fool may understand it in the simplest way
And will love in an unpretentious way.
I will definitely give it my all when I am in love.

傻瓜 我们都一样
Fools, we are all fools.
Betrayed by love once and again.
Believing that he will be different,
Only to be hurt once again.

傻瓜 我们都一样
Fools, we are all fools.
Still refuse to give up even when we got hurt.
Believing that we will still get our rewards,
But we just ended to be fools.

p.S. Sorry for the lousy translation.. But this is really a great song.. Emo week for me.. sighz..

The life of a tai-tai

I just dug out (yes dug!!) a lot of clothes for my dad to wash on Sunday.. and it was only like a quarter out of those that i bought and never wear.. the rest are still hiding in my luggage case and cupboard.. My whole family are amazed with my "buying and hiding" skill.. They advised me not to buy anymore but but..... i just cant help it..

Just recently, i went out to buy a present for a friend and ended up with.... more clothes..

These are just some of the new stuff i got...

New dresses... (3 of them are really cheap, $8, $8 and $12 and one is $40plus - guess which one is exp..)

New tops and a red belt..

Got this dress and skirt from Verge sale ($10 each)

I just simply CANNOT RESIST SALES..... Sobz..

I think the best thing after shopping is to have a nice cup of tea.. and to rest that tired legs of yours.. I went to TCC at Central with my friend one day after shopping...

TCC Iced Minty Mocha

Nutello (i forget what i drink already so i only guess is this)

Pear-fect Melody - the dessert that is supposed to be healthy but i rather eat something richer next time.. better for my tastebuds.. Healthy means bland..

The above lifestyle seems to be the lifestyle of a tai-tai leh.. Can some rich man married me so that I can be a tai-tai?? i love this lifestyle leh.. sighz..

Oh oh.. Great Singapore Sale just started last Friday.. Everyone has fun shopping.. ^_^

Monday, May 26, 2008

The day i know the r/s between two people..

Was chatting and suddenly...

HAR?? What a special job r/s between anodize and him.. Hmmm.. i am still speechless now... Help me close my mouth pls.. Opps.. :p

*real name sprayed as requested by affected party*

The puking day

I puked twice today..

The first time was in the morning, when i finished the half cup of McDonald kopi-o (that tasted like dishwasher water, only more bitter) after my hotcakes and hashbrown.. I tried to hold it in, but my mom asked me to just let it out... So i did.. Half of it went out and i can taste the hashbrown... I hope something still managed to stay inside though (but i guess not, since i was hungry at 9plus and needed to munch on biscuits)..

Then it was a lousy lunch and then as my department had a seminar today, we had refreshments at 4pm... I ate so much fishballs that i got sick again.. And out came the fishballs and maybe some eclairs too (cos i can taste it when they came out.. yucks).. Not everything is gone though cos I still feel fairly full.. The afternoon puke is good.. Got control..

I hate myself.. what is my body doing or trying to tell me?? I cant get it.. I simply cant...

Saturday, May 24, 2008

I got my acceptance letter..

Today I got my acceptance letter from SIM.. Got to pay up by 6 June to confirm the place.. Suddenly i feel so uncertain.. Am i studying for the sake of a degree? Is it right? Will i enjoy studying? None of the subjects give me any "feel" now.. How will i exceed in them.. I may just ended up getting a third degree honour and feeling more f**ked up..

Oh well, i got until 2 June to think and pay up.. That's the dateline i give myself.. Sighz..

Thanks Jay Daddy

My Jay Daddy is so talented.. His doodles are always so good.. Just recently, he got numerous of requests for flowers, so he draw 25 of them in total.. Incredible, right?? He should be in the Arts industry.. ^_^

Please go and check out all the flowers, okie?

Here's mine.. Wheeeeee...

Oh oh, i think i never thank him properly for all the other items he did for me.. so here they are.. Wheeeeeeeeeee... I am one happy gal..

My banner

My Parking sign

My Birthday chalkboard..

Oh oh, i love my Jay Daddy lots lot.. Muacks.. ^_^

p.S i miss the days when i do up my blog and stuff like that.. I lost the editing programs when my brother re-format the computer.. should i go and buy the software myself to start the ball rolling again? *scratches head*

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

The 7 Meme

Tagged by Uncle Moo Moo... But cant think of what to write so just do it randomly..

1. I am the laziest person you will ever know.. i can just talk myself out of doing things..
2. I love to think but sometimes it becomes wishful thinking only...
3. I was in track & field team for 7 years...
4. I dont have any taste buds... nothing is good or bad for me, only edible or not edible..
5. My bum is not as firm and bouncy as my brother's... sighz..
6. I have a phobia for driving and love...
7. I like to take pictures of sunrise...

1. Death (yet i still welcome it.. contradicting har?)
2. Pain
3. Water
4. Illness
5. Work Love, since i have a phobia for it..
6. Studies Driving, cos how scary can studies be.. at most dont grad loh..
7. Future

1. Cao Ge - Bei Pan (Betrayed)
2. Green Day - Wake me up when September ends
3. Daniel Powter - Bad Day
4. Alvin & the Chipmunks - Christmas Don't Be Late
5. Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
6. SHE - Ta Hai Shi Bu Dong (He still doesn't understand)
7. Landy Wen - Zhu Wo Shen Ri Kuai Le (Wish Me Happy Birthday)

1. "Yes?"
2. “Huh??”
3. "What?"
4. “I don’t know.”
5. “OMG.."
6. “Wah lao.."
7. “Siao!”

7 THINGS I TREASURE THE MOST(nt in order of preference):
1. Family
2. Friends
3. Money
4. Freedom
5. Music
6. Chocolate
7. Nature

1. Climbed a mountain to see the sunrise and get AMS as a present..
2. Kayaking even though i was damn afraid of water...
3. Got my first kiss stolen at the age of 7 or 8 (just a peck on the lips lah..)
4. First crush on a boy at the age of 6..
5. Took cab after work at West Mall to rush down to Hougang Mall just to pass a present to someone, then took cab back home to Bukit Batok.. All done within an hour..
6. Accidentally cut the right arm of a boy with a rusty penknife in Pri 5. He retaliated back by buying a new penknife immediately and cutting my right arm, causing me to weep..
7. Brought my first tour group to Korea in 2006.

1. AKK
2. Quaal
3. Chuwen
4. Ollie
5. Kell
6. Zhebin
7. Jaywalk he did liao.. hehehee

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Thanks ah, Chronicles of Narnia

Stats were super high for the past 2 days.. I think it was due to my old blog post.. Everyone is doing their research for the new sequel, "Prince Caspian" which is coming soon?? I wonder.. Hmmmm...

Chasing Cars

Random listening...

We'll do it all, everything, on our own
We don't need anything or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

Monday, May 19, 2008


[pic by Carmínico]

I love to go out and do stuff alone.. But sometimes the loneliness gets to me and I wish someone is besides me... Not just someone but the one who can makes me have a good time when we are together.. When is the right person coming by?

Maybe never... sighz..

I cant drink

My brother complained that i didnt drink the bottle of absolut vodka peach that i bought long ago... so i am trying to finish it.. and I puked after a glass mixed with mango juice.. i am such a lousy drinker that i swear i cant drink anymore.. at least nothing outside my home..

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Please Stop Child Abuse!!

Got this via Facebook... F**king person is sick.. Sexual and child abuse of a 2 and a half years old gal.. I hope he rots in hell... 30 years in prison is just tooooooooooooooooooo easy for him.. A**hole.. Watch the video and spread the words.. Thank you.

Morning Jog

Someone called the wrong number and woke me up at 5am (one of the rare days I forget to switch to silent mode).. Decided to go for a morning jog.. ALMOST died.. Let's see whether I can do this again on Monday...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Blog with a temper

My blog is weird... some days i can view the whole page, some days only half of it is managed to load properly... My friend also experiences this when she reads my blog.. Why did this happens? Does my blog has a bad temper, just like her owner?? Or is it because of IE?

Hmmmmmmmmmm... i give up..

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Follow me on Twitter

I just got myself a Twitter recently.. Hahaha.. it is fun following others on their posts.. Anyway, add me here and I will follow you to heavens toooooooooooooo.. have fun.. ^_^

Monday, May 12, 2008

曹格-背叛 Cao Ge - Betrayed

My mind keep playing this song these few days.. auto rewinding it every few hours... I love the way the bartender at Plush bar sang it that night.. Hope I can hear it again soon.. The bartender is so cute and can sings... Wooooo, i like~~

Here's the song and english translation found online.. I didnt have time to translate so just bear with it, ok? Enjoy ^_^

雨 不停落下來 花 怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉 你說不愛就不愛 我一個人 欣賞悲哀
There is rain keeping falling down, I wonder why.
There is no blossom at all, for which I sigh.
No matter how I did my best to water the garden of love day and night,
You just didn't want it to turn into life,
Only to leave me alone in crying.

愛 只剩下無奈 我 一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間 永遠都夾著空白 缺了一塊 就不精采
I have nothing to do but let love pass me by.
I would never like to guess why.
There is always a white key lying between black ones on the piano,
and I can play no wonderful music without any white.


緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye 你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢 我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
As the two hearts have been so close to each other,
how can we say goodbye?
You were clearer about it, but you still asked me why.
My love is so passionate that I am madly brave.
I would betray myself to make your wish realized.

把手放開不問一句Say goodbye 當作最後一次對你的溺愛
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管 只要你能愉快
I would go away without saying anything but goodbye.
I would show my fondness for you. This is the last time.
I would act like a stranger ever since.
I just wish you are happy and fine.

心 有一句感慨 我 還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前 替我再回頭看看 那些片段 還在不在
I still have a word on my mind.
But I wonder who I can speak to tomorrow night.
Before you close the door, turn back and take a look once more.
See if those pieces are still on your side.

(Repeat Chorus)

I just wish you are happy and fine.

Translation by 杰暘 and taken from here

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mothers' Day

(photo credit to Guynneth)

In my family, all of us rely on my mother for everything. She cooked, washed, take care of us when we are sick, worried about us when we are home late.. Everything and anything is all under her care... Even now, when both my brother and I am already adults, it has not changed.

Mommy, I will like to thank you for tolerating my bad temper and for having me in your life, though I still feel that it was a bad decision made since having me practically spoilt your life. Thank you for taking care of the whole family, for trying to earn the keeps to support us for more than half of your lifetime.

Even though I am spending money over my limits, I will do my best to save money now to give them to you.. I will also try to bring you overseas for holiday and to keep my temper in check throughout the trip. I still remember that I own you a trip to Saiya, Hainan Island to see that magnificant white Guanyin figure you like and I will definitely keep my promise.

Mommy, I want to let you know that if it wasn't for you, I may have already left this world... So Mommy, can you promise me that you will live for another 20 years at least.. To be healthy and have no more pain.. I always fear that you will go at any moment even though I do not have any reason to do so.

I love you, Mommy.. even though you won't be reading this.. But I will hug you and tell you this everyday so that you won't forget..

Hug and kisses,
Your beloved daughter..

Thursday, May 08, 2008

A Bad Day

My boss asked me to do something two weeks ago and i still havent start it... sighz.. Deadline is coming...

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong


So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Wednesday, May 07, 2008


Sometimes I will stare out of my window and just thought of jumping down straight....

But I will hesitate in the end... Not because I have thought of my family and friends or how sad the people who know me will be or how foolish I am for throwing everything away at such a young age using such a method.

I stop simply because of fear. Fear of death. Fear of pain.

Fear is such a powerful tool sometimes. Humans succumb under the pressure of fear - Fear of failure. When used properly, you can achieve beyond the possible or when failed, also turned mad from anxiety.

Unfortunately, this is why you still see me standing today. Simply because I had succumbed to fear and did not act upon what I should do or want to do.

a list of "I've Never..."

Saw this at Yunz, who took from Uncle moomoo, who kop-ed from JF.

The bold items are TRUE.
Copy, Paste & Spread…
Have fun....

I’ve Never Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
I’ve Never Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
I’ve Never Crashed A Friend’s Car
I’ve Never Been To Japan
I’ve Never Been In A Taxi
I’ve Never Been In Love
I’ve Never Had Sex In Public

I’ve Never Been Dumped
I’ve Never Done Cocaine

I’ve Never Shoplifted
I’ve Never Been Fired
I’ve Never Been In A Fist Fight
I’ve Never Had Group Intercourse

I’ve Never Snuck Out Of My Parents’ House
I’ve Never Been Tied Up
I’ve Never Been Arrested
I’ve Never Made Out With A Stranger
I’ve Never Stolen Something From My Job
I’ve Never Celebrated New Years In Time Square
I’ve Never Gone On A Blind Date

I’ve Never Lied To A Friend
I’ve Never Had A Crush On A Teacher
I’ve Never Celebrated Mardi Gras In New Orleans
I’ve Never Been To Europe
I’ve Never Skipped School
I’ve Never Slept With A Co-Worker
I’ve Never Cut Myself On Purpose
I’ve Never Had Sex At The Office
I’ve Never Been Married
I’ve Never Been Divorced
I’ve Never Posed Nude
I’ve Never Killed Anyone
I’ve Never Received Scars From My Sex Partner
I’ve Never Thrown Up In A Bar
I’ve Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire
I’ve Never Eaten Sushi
I’ve Never Been Snowboarding
I’ve Never Flashed Anyone

I’ve Never Met Anyone From Online

A cold in the hot weather

I am having a cold in this damn hot weather???? Have been sneezing non-stop... Bloody body is spoilt... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Sunday, May 04, 2008

I hate passwords because i just keep forgetting them... Argh.. it's irritating.. Am i getting old? Why is my memory is failing..

Currently obsessed with this song..

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when Spring began
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Bt Timah Hike and Free Music at NUS

I dont know what made me decide to go hiking this morning... i must be crazy..

I went to the gathering place, Beauty World's Mac at 9.25am. Met up with the CS-ers, Kian Ming, Sally, Audrey and Yi Ru.. We walked to the visitor centre to meet up with Shahirah, Menghui and Adriano.. Pontus joined us half-way and then left first too.. :(

The path Kian Ming really killed us... super tiring and with lots of steps.. I usually took the easy path up so this new path with deviations is a really new route.. We finally finished the whole thing at 1plus. Saw some monkeys when we are leaving the place..

We, minus Yi Ru as she needed to rush off for another gathering, went to a nearby place to have lunch.. I am so exhausted that i dont feel hungry at all.. ended only ordered drinks.. I reached home at 3pm and fell asleep in front of my computer shortly.. But i woke up at 4pm due to aching neck..

I checked and saw that there will be junior recitals (piano) at Yong Siew Toh Conversatory of Music at 7pm.. So i left my place at 6.30pm, took a cab down.. Enjoyed the music alot, especially the playing by Nattapol Tantikarn... He played Capriccio on the Departure of his Beloved Brother, in B flat major BWV 992; Ballade, Op. 46 and Spanish Rhapsody.

And that ended my day... sibeh tiring loh.. dont know why i am so crazy these days.. tomorrow is also booked with things to do.. sighz..

Farking farking bastard

Everytime i read the emails from that particular staff, i feel like taking a knife and stabbing it into his heart, hands, face.. Not up his arse cos it will dirty my knife as I suspect he is gay...

Farking bastard just dont get my emails right... keep asking me to forward his questions to Finance dept to ask them to reply him.. YOU think they are farking free ah.. just working to entertain you.. YOU think I am farking free to reply you because of fun... I was just highlighting may have problem but the problem has not occurred yet so why the fark you worry.. Why are you worrying so much, not that you have alot of reimbursements to claim.. You hardly claims at all...

Sometimes, i wonder why i am still in this job, where i am so unappreciated.. maybe it is just me.. sighz..

p.S. No, i dont have anything against gays, just that i hate that I always have to sajiao to them.. tiring for my brain to function...

Friday, May 02, 2008

Drunk in life...

Something went wrong with my mom yesterday and she "forced" me to wear my shorts and red tank when we went out to the nearby market for awhile. She said she is sick of seeing me dressed like an auntie.. but hor, i am one mah.. sighz..

Photo-whoring time...



My second finger kinda got covered by my big head.. i am not scolding bad word, k?

Went down to Wala Wala for Dowagr's birthday celebration.. Poor gal got totally drunk due to the nice works of the barflies.. dot dot dot...

This is only my third time at Wala Wala and i knocked over a glass of beer for the second time.. damn clumsy oaf..

I was very mesmerised by the guitarist of the UnXpected band, Simon... Only managed to get a pic of his back, though.. :p

I farking hate it when i drank, got drunk but was still sober to remember all the stupid things i did.. Just that I cant remember WHY i did them and what i said... Hmmm... I can only offer a very sincere apology to the uncle and xiao didi for the pain they had to endure.. so sorry..

the worst thing is that after doing all these crazy things, with the excuse of my mind not in the right state, my heart still feels empty.. laughing like mad on the outsides but it's just didnt reach the insides... Kisses are nothing but an source of emptiness..

I have no farking idea whether i am still making any sense... oh well... my brain is in pain from having only 2-hrs of sleep... :(